it is 12.05am as shown on my PC..tonight the feeling is a bit different.. i feel no fear, no sadness, no excitement..nothing..the music keeps going..the weather ain’t great as it is rather stuffy tonight, there is no wind and no rain pouring..i guess i had my prayer answered for not wanting rain but not tat is is not raining, i wish it could instead..
i have always love the night, the sounds of insects outside the window, the feeling of peace and the cooling breeze..at this moment it feels i am at my own zone, in my own world… when is the last time i actually listen to songs and ignore all the happenings around me.. it feels so good..
what am i thinking now? i’m not too sure..my mind is blank, my heart is light and i only want this peaceful feeling to last longer..
btw, something jus came across my mind..today, i have just learned from my colleague today that she and her bf do have annual meeting on their anniversary every year.. they will each evaluate what they had promised to accomplished the year before and will see how far have they come…at the same time, it is also a day for them to set goals for the following year.. each person is to list down 10 items and by next year’s anniversary, they will have the annual meeting again…fascinating indeed..
i on the other hand think it is rather stressful to set expectations not only to myself ( myself is still ok..) but also I’ll be keeping track on the things that he has planned or set to do..but at the same time, i too understand also how as per my colleague, this will help them to work harder to achive their goal, ie..to go on tour in 2010 or personal goal like changing to a better job for a better tomorrow..
in a relationship it seems healthy to be able to enccourage each other to strive and come to think of it, it is not such a bad idea too after minus-ing the annual meeting feeling and organization.. i prefer to share dreams and hopes through common daily sharing and to keep it in the heart while working hard towards the same goal..i wish to be on the same page as knowing if myself and ping share the same target, it will drives me to work harder and to achieve something that belongs to us..
unless, the meeting comes with wonderful food and lovely environment, i don’t mind having meeting at all hehehe
nite..